Helianthus Soul

March. 7th 2018  Illustration title : Gratitude Illustrator : Destiana (me) Media : Watercolor on Storenso Paper Editing : Photoshop (for adding text & cleaning) Drawing date : 28th February 2018 Have you ever feel like you're not good enough at (almost) everything? Anxiety, insecurity, and jealousy often stop by when I feel no body want to appreciate my works.  Just by looking at people's wonderful works often gave me nerve. Their works are mostly enchanting, famous, and they have so much followers that adore them.  For some people like me, every single "love" clicked on my works could mean a lot. For some reason it has power to give me a courage to keep working on it. And when no one pushed the love button on it I easily thought "aah..may be I just have no talent in art". That's the old me who is really bad at gratitude. A person whom I know ever said that grateful is the key of happiness. I personally agreed what he said because t ...

February, 28th 2018 Illustration title : Contemplating dream Illustrator : Destiana (me) Media : Watercolor on Storaenso Paper Edit : Photoshop (for adding text & cleaning) Drawing date : 28th February 2018 Here is a glimpse story behind this illustration. Talking about dreams is kinda painful for me. Getting laughed at for every tiny effort I made to chase my dream is become my daily lunch. "Wow, you're so confident of yourself" "That's hard, you won't make it" "Why you just don't look for a normal job?" "A dreamer" "What's your actual job is?" "Being a civil servant is better" I always eat them up, till I can't take it anymore. People don't understand struggle I face everyday in order to avoid their scorn. I just don't understand people. Why they don't help me instead of talking non sense about what I really wanna do. Why they can't just mind their own business. Hate...

Malioboro, 4th November 2017 Illustration title : Contemplating dream Illustrator : Destiana (me) Media : Watercolor on Storaenso Paper Edit : Photoshop (for cleaning) Drawing date : 4th November 2017 Jogjakarta is well known for its tourism and I admit it. Even though it become little bit barren, hotter and more pollution filling up the city now, Jogja still hold no.1 tourists favorite place to go on holiday. When holiday come, suddenly bunch of cars from other cities spreading around the roads, makes traffic jam on every corner (such a disadvantage of being popular tourism destination). This spot was my favorite place to hang out when I was a teenagers. It has been renovated many times and this drawing is the recent looks that Jogja get recently. You will get the best atmosphere after rain, perhaps cooler than Paris (lol I'm exaggerate) especially at night. Lots of street musician, performers and artists gathering at Malioboro on Saturday night which make this han...